Category Archives: consciousness

Wedding night tears…

I was just reading a post by a blogger I follow (“My Crazy BiPolar Life”) in which she describes her inability (at the time) to stop crying.   Sometimes when reading blogs I feel like a mere sympathetic voyeur, but this … Continue reading

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The habit of despair

Last night I watched the very moving documentary Crooked Beauty* about Jacks McNamara’s  life, art, music, poetry, and activism – threaded through her experience of mental illness.  I’ll watch it again.  I was reminded of something I’ve been thinking about, … Continue reading

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Different drummer

“If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away. It is not important that he should … Continue reading

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Omar

Omar.   He spoke English, French, German Arabic and Russian well, and a few others passably.   Born in Jordan of ‘ethnic Russian’ parents, he was my ‘exotic flame’. Omar’s passion at the time was writing plays, and he supported himself as … Continue reading

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My “pedophile” experience

My ‘pedophile experience’   began with a cute little nine month old baby called David.  And it began in the park.  I was ten and living in LaSalle, Quebec. In those days most kids had the freedom to roam about the … Continue reading

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Here-and-now vs. There-and-then

So what exactly does it mean, and what was life like before I learned to stay in the here and now? Well, the opposite to staying in the here and now could be, for example, remembering, or imagining, or analyzing … Continue reading

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Dancing off on a tangent…

I’ve waxed ecstatic about Swing Dancing, but there are aspects of dancing which I don’t care for.  One is the learning part.   If I had it to do over again, I would only go to the occasional workshop rather than … Continue reading

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